Food Addiction

My food addiction is slowly taking over my life.  I’m not hungry, I’m bored. I’m not hungry, I’m bored. – This is what I have to keep telling myself when I feel like reaching for yet another unnecessary snack.  I don’t know why I can’t seem to overcome my addiction.  I’m just glad I finally got to the place that I can recognize my problem.  I binge all the time…especially late at night.  I eat everything in sight…for no reason.  Last night I got busy and didn’t have time for dinner until around 9 – I felt truly hungry in the first time in I don’t know how long.  That’s sad.  I’ve stopped eating for hunger…I eat like it’s my hobby.

I never really saw it as a problem until recently.  I’m obese but my body type and my interest in fashion help me cover it up.  I don’t binge in public so my loved ones don’t really see any issue with what I eat.  I’ve tried to diet time and time again but I fail each time to make dieting a new lifestyle.  I can do a 21 day diet because I know it will end but the thought of truly changing my lifestyle just overwhelms me.

I’m going to try again next week.  I’m going grocery shopping after payday so I can’t use money as an excuse not to eat healthy but I’m sure I’ll find some other reason….