My food addiction is slowly taking over my life. I’m not hungry, I’m bored. I’m not hungry, I’m bored. – This is what I have to keep telling myself when I feel like reaching for yet another unnecessary snack. I don’t know why I can’t seem to overcome my addiction. I’m just glad I finally got to the place that I can recognize my problem. I binge all the time…especially late at night. I eat everything in sight…for no reason. Last night I got busy and didn’t have time for dinner until around 9 – I felt truly hungry in the first time in I don’t know how long. That’s sad. I’ve stopped eating for hunger…I eat like it’s my hobby.
I never really saw it as a problem until recently. I’m obese but my body type and my interest in fashion help me cover it up. I don’t binge in public so my loved ones don’t really see any issue with what I eat. I’ve tried to diet time and time again but I fail each time to make dieting a new lifestyle. I can do a 21 day diet because I know it will end but the thought of truly changing my lifestyle just overwhelms me.
I’m going to try again next week. I’m going grocery shopping after payday so I can’t use money as an excuse not to eat healthy but I’m sure I’ll find some other reason….